I learned something very interesting on the 28th of February. About myself really. “I am intolerant of the intolerable.”

“Jazmine&Jazz,” was a piece of art that has inspired the muse of this piece to interact with me through correspondence for a month. https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/art/JazminJazz-786309422

With nothing but good things to say. From platonic conversation, to the intimate and just causal discourses on her favorite colors. She has donated 1,000 points to my cause and cheered on my artistic development. She loves to express “love,” and caring. We are not committed to one another mind you and because she has a girlfriend, I try to refrain from pushing too much, my own ideas of affection and keep things as innocent as possible.

 Then we come across a woman like Faye Foxx, a NSFW cosplayer, I have a sample piece of art with her holding her breasts and half nude. For two years she has done nothing more than send me little hearts and likes on a few comments I’ve sent her way. I’ve always initiated conversation to receive no response and the first time she decides to say something to me, her words are, “I do not cosplay to fulfill anyone’s desires but my own.”

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/faye-foxx

Yeah, I blocked her. I really wish I had responded as some creative minds online suggested, what the provocative question such as, “You Mad?” I did not and so I will never know what would have come from that rabbit hole. What I do know is, I have a little threshold on my level for stupid. I have been that way since I was young.

 I am not a disrespectful person and I don’t like it when people insinuate that I am because I enjoy drawing women in the midst of irregular angularity. A BBW (Big Breasted Woman.) Suggests she wants to lose weight and have the figure of another woman and I ask, “Why should such a notion occur, how will my bbw+bbc fantasy be fulfilled if you lose weight and become someone else?” She flipped out on me and I was going to apologize for coming off as rude~ But you know I am a NSFW artist, a sardonic writer, and a bbc extraordinaire, you’d think she would have offered me employment or want to collaborate on a project, you’d think since she runs around half naked on the internet half the time, she’d appreciate the interest of a fan, like Jazmine&Jazz, Set, SatinDarling, Medral,

https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/art/Medral-Fortuna-Favet-Fortibus-Alice-787597377

(I love the fact that she did not even allow me to apply color to the image before giving me her words of support with the project and just overall satisfaction with the idea alone.)

My list is extensive of all the women that think I am great and fun to interact with and allow me the freedom to express myself, or distress myself. I mean if anyone was going to show me some level of contempt or anger towards my craftsmanship or words, you’d think CalipsoCere would have raised hell, considering I illustrated her having sex and enjoying the bbc of the Dream Weaver. 

Faye Foxx was not given the honor and I am glad I did not waste my time with the idea, she is only focused on herself mind you so this letter won’t phase her.

I won’t speculate further on why a cosplayer who most of the time is naked gets upset because someone says they are attracted to her breasts. That stuff has never worked for me. I remember when I was in middle school and a girl tried to “play my face,” asking me if it is true all black men have big dicks and do I have one. In response, I told her, “If your so curious come find out.” She got upset because she thought I was calling her a whore, or what not. I remember times in college, I am grown, and expect everyone around me to be just as grown, or can handle their liquor. We are at a football game, my school lost every game so I never gambled, but there is a group of women that all the guys knew to be easy and I would treat them with kindness, I would joke with them and encourage laughs. Remember I am the master of sarcasm and I know how to ooze contempt. One of the women asked me if I was packing, or do I find her attractive or whatever. I give her a few compliments, does not mean much to me and I did enjoy her big boobs. I move into her place when I needed the help because the college kicked all of the undergraduate juniors off the campus. Never did get to play with her big breasts like I wanted to. She knew I wanted to and we were good roommates, I never said anything as she whored herself out to anyone willing to pay the rent. Outside of supplying her with weed, I don’t know why she allowed me to stay around as long as she did. She left nudes on my computer, I got to see her all and told her as much, that I enjoyed her and would not be remised in having tasted her. You know the woman went to her, “Homeboy,” and told him I was talking about abusing her or some stupid shit. I laughed when he threw the first punch. She did not think I could fight and when her “homeboy,” ended up out the second story window and the othes ended up eating asphalt, she swore she had nothing to do with it. She asked me to forgive her and let their be peace.

 Well needless to say, “I blocked her,” out of my life, just as I did Faye Foxx or anyone that does not know how to simply say, “I appreciate your kind words but I am really not interested in what you have to offer, we can always be friends though.”