Well as you all may know I've had to take responsibility for my drinking habits. Especially because of the DWI issue. I had hoped I could continue working and save some money to pay court fees, and or anything that would come up and finance the art work. Considering those that think like my mother will refuse to endorse my NSFW artwork and stories if I maintaine a continued online feed.

Of course had my employers known of the art they may have fired me for that. Yet that is the rub, I've not been fired for my drinking or the risk I took in driving a vehicle under the influence. I've not been fired for the lack of interest I give my employers and I've been free to continue as long as the courts have not sent me to jail. Free to continue my art and publications, not so much the drinking. I've sought to curb that on my own.

I'll have to pay a 150 dollars for a substance abuse assessment, regardless if I was innocent of a DWI charge or not, I found that interesting..so it's possible the DA could waive most of everything and because it's my first time leave it at that..yet that makes too much sense and would have me get off too cheap. In the midst of the coronavirus, every dollar counts.

Talking with my employer I arranged for one more check of 200 dollars to be delivered to me this week. After that I'm on my own. Which is fair. I never went to them when I got the DWI cause I knew they would not aid me in the first place. It would have been nice to have my employers in the court room to speak on my behalf. May have given me a boost in defense, but nooo, instead I've given the 3rd degree and left on my own to find the best solution though this maze.

Why did they not fire me now? Why drag it out until after court in which I'd need their aid to pay fees but would be denied because they would not see fit to help me pay this bill. I'll have to travel elsewhere to retain my papers and secured driving status, when in a matter of advancing me a check of 500 dollars it could be paid in full. Whatever, as I said in the previous post...That's Life.

What makes my employer cowardly?

Prior to this conversation there was a question of my status at my current employ. There was a question of my work ethic and ability to keep my role in the firm. There was a question of my worth and it was never answered, though challenged due to my DWI.

It was believed that because I was willing to 'degrade' myself by receiving the charge then further degradation of my character could be justified and name calling, or false accusations, (which I'm glad never surfaced, yet was aware of..) were mannerly and one of my station, should merely capitulate to their decree.

Yeah none of that happened.

Instead I was informed, rather fairly and pleasently that my role would be suspended pending the outcome of my DWI.

Which if I go to jail my role here would mean nothing for I'll be in jail from 6 months to 3 years. If I'm restricted, ill be at my employers mercy or banished from my work due to inability to perform and I certainly will not come away from this without having to spend money, my employers refuse to divy, out and if I don't pay the bill, I'm likely to be in jail and due to lack of an ability to perform, out of a job.

In the end, instead of aiding me to remain out of jail, like cowards they sit on the sidelines and wait for me to fall off the cliff.

Well friends, as it's been said in the past

"WE HAVE NO FEAR OF FALLING!"