As a creative, I always have to be aware of the, "Power-Of-The-Tounge...
It is so uncontrollable that it can be wielded with a thought.
At times I create traps for myself without trying. Mind bending pitfalls you can't escape. A dream beyond waking.. you can only muscle through.
I don't want to stay with my grandma for Thanksgiving but have no choice. It is depressing and no amount of Netflix can save me.
I wanna go to prison and bury myself cause I'm homeless...my aunts find me ungrateful for mentioning it. But it's my truth and unless they are willing to help,they don't get a say.
MchectorII
Yeah,I know how it feels like to face that situation.Sometimes,I find it nearly impossible to not say some things even though I’m aware of how hurtful they can be.That’s why I try my best to control my emotions and thoughts but my attempts are not always successful because I’m a flawed human being and not some machine that can be programmed.Anyway,if you ever need to speak your mind,go ahead.Just keep in mind the character of the person you’re talking to as not everyone can take the hard truth very well.
I don’t know how your relationship is like with your grandmother but unless she has done very terrible things,try to put it behind yourself and spend some time with her as life is short.I know it’s easier said than done and it’s still your decision after all.
As tempting as it is,prison would only be a temporary solution to your financial problems at best.While you may have a bed and food,the environment isn’t exactly ideal for a person’s character.It could change you for the better but there’s always the chance that it may do the opposite and that will affect you and everyone around you once you leave.As dumb as it may sound,you can either try to find some work yourself or ask your relatives directly for help.You do not get along with your aunts because you all don’t see eye to eye and that’s understandable.Maybe try explaining your situation to them(or other relatives you can trust) as sincerely as you can and I’m sure at least one of them will understand.
My advice isn’t the best as that’s only what I can think of so feel free to do whatever you like with it.I won’t judge you for it and I hope things get better for you.Take care and hang in there!
AdventVoice
I will keep on living free as long as I can.
Thank you for your love ?