As of today my time will begin to rarely be my own. Due to the influx of people that will begin to demand my time and attention for their “important,” projects and desire to aid foster children or families set to lose their children to foster care for past mistakes, lack of work or social aid and education. I will be asked to volunteer my time and patience. This extra work on top of my care-giver duties and the care of goats, I will not be able to wake at my usual 5 a.m, schedule to work on my art and writings.

My articles will have to continue their once a month cycle, which I am sure the fans of my blogs won’t notice. It is the art that might suffer and that stresses me.

I yearn for the day that my output is no longer regulated by my access to privacy, away from the busy bodies who would presume because I don’t participate in their charity works, working a soup kitchen, or building Habitats for Humanity that I am not a productive Christian or citizen. They don’t see me working in a grocery store, a factory, a chicken plant, driving trucks or working for the state road crew, that I am not working. Because I am not going to school, a University, I am not in the military, I am not working. I am not in a restaurant busting tables, or serving drinks in a bar, clerking checks in a bank, I am dead weight and should be available to anyone that calls and says, “ I can’t pay you but can you take time and come work with me?”

I had to delete my files of open information on the computer, to prevent the happen chance, that if those on the land, 77 acres mind you, need to computer, I don’t offend their Christian sensibilities with my lewd, violent, intellectual, graphic art. The day I am able to work uninterrupted, and present works unabashed will be a good one. Of course I personally have never been ashamed of my works, but I am very much aware of the contention that is set to come from my puritan friends.

I would not know what to do with myself if I was able to showcase my works among publishers, advertisers, and lewd art supporters that would see my works and ask for commissions and full time dedication for what I am able to produce. Of course I know what I would do with myself, I would produce. Non-stop, journals filled with ideas, ready for publication in less than 72hrs and articles flowing weekly to feed the imaginations of interested readers and aspiring artists who would not mind collaborating and promoting their own ideas along side my own.

An endless stream of work. An enterprise set to take you all away from your own daily grind and immerse you in the numerous universes built upon the frame work of pleasure and ecstasy.

Why is it so wrong to desire to see the grocery store shelves, which of the moment bore me with the Times Magazine, Southern Living, Vogue, and Home Cooking, filled with my works, @Lewdua , @Tina-Raze, @prywinko, @DellaKitt, @bmesias063, @ShreyaVikram, @ZebraHumor, or any of the numerous and talented creators that have shown me love in the past three years?

Why has it become impossible to believe that what we put our heart into is sound enough to build a citadel upon?

A home is all I really want, but that is too small to dream of. I am the Dream Weaver mind you, and I build and store a lot upon dreams. I dream of my virtual support translating into home discussions about art and a house full of illustrators and artists, writers, devising works that are to be sold, published, and keep my bills paid, so I never have to live in some card board box.

There is an artist in my area by the name of Marcela Slade, who charges 175.00 to teach illustrative techniques. The Art Center charges, 52.00 to teach “Life Drawing,” with an emphasis on nude models. Then there is Kelly Oakes that teaches Painting Portraits, and Mixed Media for 168.00. The Intro to Abstract Painting is 180.00 for six meetings.

And I can’t get one person to buy into my little publications for 1.00-10.00; or I am told charging people 150.00 for a piece of art is too expensive. With this new information about my present competition, I would have to argue with those that would presume, promoting, showcasing, and self-publication is not an active occupation.   

So I wrote https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2019/06/02/the-fantasy-list/ and a few people suggested there is nothing in the American legal system that can be used to oppress NSFW artists. That things have changed over the years and it is a lot more acceptable than in times passed.

I just learned today that Mike Diana has been around somewhere since 2017. I hope he is doing alright: When I moved out and began traveling, I ran into some situations that unless you were there you would not have thought they'd happen. But to hear that things are not as bad as my blog suggests is nice. Is wonderful. I was not upset, though the idea that the naturalist pacifists, would suggest justification behind the incarceration of a person for their livelihood is upsetting. Now you say no one is being oppressed for lewd works. I can site a few examples of those that where... https://www.vice.com/en_us/article/d38dyz/the-obscene-comic-that-got-its-artist-thrown-in-jail-is-back <<That was just one famous occurrence but there are many others not so known that see questions like, what my naturalist friend posed after reading https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2019/04/07/let-freedom-ring/ "Am I ok with the laws?" I was shocked and had to ask myself, "Why would I not be?"

In order to suggest that things are better for perverts and lovers of the obscene since 1994, I was sent the guidelines of the Federal government on why Mike Diana was sent away.

https://www.justice.gov/criminal-ceos/citizens-guide-us-federal-law-obscenity

So Mike Diana was charged with obscenity due to his creation and distribution of comics including the boiled Angel series. US obscenity laws prohibit the following:

18 U.S.C. § 1460- Possession with intent to sell, and sale, of obscene matter on Federal property

18 U.S.C. § 1461- Mailing obscene or crime-inciting matter

18 U.S.C. § 1462- Importation or transportation of obscene matters

Broadcasting obscene language

18 U.S.C. § 1465- Transportation of obscene matters for sale or distribution

18 U.S.C. § 1466- Engaging in the business of selling or transferring obscene matter

18 U.S.C. § 1466A- Obscene visual representations of the sexual abuse of children

18 U.S.C. § 1468- Distributing obscene material by cable or subscription television

18 U.S.C. § 1470- Transfer of obscene material to minors

It's worth noting that the laws themselves don't define obscenity, so the Supreme Court came up with the Miller Test to determine whether something is obscene. Boiled Angel counts as obscene since it contained depictions of murder and rape far beyond "contemporary adult community standards"

Also, as far as I've seen, these laws haven't actually changed much in recent history. Therefore I was incorrect in assuming laws have changed. I do want to point out, however, that according to these laws Diana was never arrested for making these artworks, but for intending to sell and/or distribute them. As far as I can tell, this doesn't necessarily seem to be an act of oppression, but rather regulation so that it doesn't get into the hands of impressionable children.

Citizen's Guide To U.S. Federal Law On Obscenity

Just so you know this is not good news, it is an act of oppression: especially since Obscenity was not defined, is not defined, and can be construed as using foul language, gore, violence, or a PG-13 movie: the guy was set up and if he was not and really intended harm all of that can only be determined by the original findings of the officer that investigated him. Again those that desire to peddle sex have things they are not allowed to do, regardless of Freedom of Speech laws and the inferred Freedom of Expression presented in the constitution. None of this changes my view points of my article of the "Fantasy-List," and if you are going to be passive about the intrusion upon you ability to create and trade smut, then don't get in the business of sex work. There are head hunters out there, lurking in the shadows and to be aware is to be alive.

I loved the discussion though with those willing to have it with me. I would suggest those that are younger than me to respect my wisdom on this issue. Everything presented proves my point entirely and makes me feel so good to be right. I love winning and would have made a bad ass lawyer. Anyway enough blowing of my own trumpet. The point of sharing this with you all is just to make you aware of my contempt for the pacifists and those that suggest, things are fine and it is not as bad as my articles suggest. Grow up and quick!

It was suggested that because Diana is free of probation and allowed to exhibit his works things are better. Mind you, Diana's has had his work in galleries before Superchief and got tagged, by and undercover cop.

Galleries will take work, if it will sell. That has never been an issue. LA has always been open to that kind of stuff. But the laws that allowed for an undercover cop to take his work and build an investigation to have him arrested was what I was referring to. Maybe times have changed and I am slow on the uptake but from where I am standing, to lock someone up for what they wrote or illustrated and not what they have done is a bit much.

Long live the right to ones fantasies.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DPVCNK74ZBI

Well I have sent the email to Joyful Jewel Galleries: https://adventvoice.newgrounds.com/news/post/1054173

I am so excited and I hope they like the 5 pieces of art I want them to accept and present in their gallery. It really was a hard choice, because I love all of my pieces for several reasons and it is not like I can just say one is better than the other.

This is the email I sent to them:

The first image is that of the Application you all asked me to fill out before I submitted any art works with you all. 

The next set of images I have attached to this file are those that I would like for you to display in your gallery. 

As I said in my application, each piece has a story to tell and on my online galleries I have shared a lot of what they mean and the motivation behind the works: 

"I was seeking Anansi," is a discussion on who she is, why I think she is a woman and not a man as older stories would suggest, why to me this is the true interpretation of the Anansi. 

This image fits into the universal expression as to what and who she is. She is not some web slinging mutant, or a bandit capturing child that meddles into the affairs of desperate men.

She is not a harpy set out to capture a man because she her self is incapable of caring for her own affairs. She leaps and Transends the walls of thought, belief, public structure and order with prudence and wisdom, constantly weaving the order of the stars into her favor. Building ladders of success one level at a time. Set to unlock doors many kings and queens of high places would not allow, "the common," man or woman to enter, she finds a way.

 Isn't she lovely.  Though I do not doubt that the African's devised a male deity whom danced and sung songs for rain~ which is forever going to be a necessity in a land commonly touched by drought; I was more or less centralizing the lore of Anansi or "The spider," with her personage. 

Under the belief that mortals are defined by occupation, station, or class, and internal will. I am convinced of the "Female," personage of "The Spider," because of numerous sources of information outside of the Bible that speak of her maternal nature opposed to the masculine. I am also certain because of male bigotry which is deeply rooted in African teaching and how old the story is, you'd never find a leading "female," role. Though their are many female mortals or demigods or ancients that have left trails of their prowess to be found by the inquisitive. 

For instance my newest project is about, "Three Little Mothers," (https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/art/Three-Little-Mothers-751898981)  who control a tower and eat a city alive. Much like the spider in the book of Isaiah 59:5.  

"Day Break" is a tribute to Norah Jones: https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/journal/Norah-Jones-Tribute-766274468

"Ezo Funk,"   I did this piece in Tribute to a friend who made a song that I thought was wonderful. I play it all the time and now when I think of the Samurai I can not help but to incorporate some of his flavor into my work.

Keep jamming my friends!   https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/journal/Ezo-Funk-753654255

"My View of Heaven," I began this piece because I felt their was a lack of understanding in the world of how important the thought of heaven really is. What we will find there and how secure one must be that no matter what we do in this life; if we seek to help others there is a place under the tree of life for each and every one of us. 

A place where we can laugh with our children, sing with our loved ones and cheer for the victory that awaits those still willing to dream.

Yes, what a wonderful view of a world just over the mountain of life. Even for men like me.

 I was disturbed by the lack of appreciation of some conservative groups for the heartfelt intentions behind the works of artists and instead of taking the offense lying down I decided to respond the best way I know how: https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2017/11/16/the-artisans-of-heaven/

"Happy Birthday Set,"  Well I've known Set for a while now: https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/no-nut-november

When I first met her online at Discord https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/art/Set-771083265She is still hosting Night Time Talk Server and the gang still gets together and share some of there more sexual ideas she is a big fan of artstation.com/pantykitty which after you view her work, you can't help but to want to support her, in anyway you can.

Set's big day is on May 2nd. Which makes me very happy because I was able to complete the project, with days to spare. As time continues to pass and she gets older I can't help but to wonder what she will be like when she is twenty five or thirty, will she still be there to talk to about one's Night Time Thoughts, or will she be married and unavailable to me? Will she grow her hair long and who will be the man to marry her, to cherish her, and aid her in finding joy through her endless list of pleasures and desires?

I ponder this at times and the moment passes, finding it easier to enjoy the fact that in this moment I am able to give her something special for her birthday. What the years entail, we will just have to wait and see.

This is also an answer to a few artists that feel there is no value in Digital Art. We look at works crafted through the computer and denounce the talent that is there or choose to not understand and demonize the effort put into the work. For a while now I have had to push beyond the negativity surrounding Digital art and find the courage to present to you today 5 of my more acceptable pieces of art. Works that give way for the Traditionalist, Modernist, Fundamentalist and seeks to combine them all into one medium. 

  I do hope you have found my presentation entertaining and educational and can see the value in the showcase as much as I do.

What really motivates me as an artist and in time I hope you too will share this with others as you get to know me is the idea of not fading away in time or lose the battle of Creative Relevancy, https://www.linkedin.com/pulse/battle-creative-relevancy-advent-voice/?published=t  https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/creative-relevancy

https://www.deviantart.com/adventvoice/journal/Dream-Weaver-s-Questionnaire-761752796

                                                                                    Yours Truly 

                                                                                  Advent Voice

I can only hope they respond well.

I decided to do something special and creative for my fans and supporters of my work. I never considered my Patreon https://www.patreon.com/AdventVoice prices to be outlandish and flashy as some of the others I support or have yet to support because of the price. This has made me not wanting to drop the price or yield on the amount I publish just because I am scoring 0 on traffic to this particular brand of service for written and creative material.

Coming to the conclusion that we all have gotten accustomed to playing little to nothing for the hard work of creators and artists and the idea of paying a dollar, five dollars, one hundred and fifty dollars tribute to your favorite creator is rather intimidating, I have decided to give a preview of what most of you are missing when you decide to force my hand and give you material for free. LOL JK. I do it cause I love you all so much.

I hope you enjoy and get a kick out of the story as much as I did!

https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2019/05/31/apt-1012-overview/

http://www.joyfuljewel.com/ 

This gallery is going to allow me to display some of my works, but I have to choose five pieces. Which of the five would you choose to display at that gallery??

So I don't normally have things to vent about, but I am really disturbed at the level of presumption placed upon my twitter feed. Some chick that decieded to follow me had the nerve to ask me to delete a response to her tweet on my twitter feed. I had assumed when people follow you, they want to talk or have something good to offer. She is not even a fan of my work but she follows me. She even told me on my twiiter feed, "I am not a fan" , so why is she following me? https://twitter.com/Scope2Mars/status/1132260668273582087 I dislike trolls so much, they are worse than Orc's.

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/TnQx3y8JvJMneEpLhw3H-gdYKr2E1TF8_ypKgWvMV-s/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1067808198256730112/Wsqujzb9_bigger.jpgScope2Mars (@Scope2Mars)

Well I hope you have a good weekend nonetheless: https://t.co/QLmizk0png

Good bye, love. https://t.co/VtHLphIDSo

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

I would love it if someone could give me some insight on this situation:

OMG I am having the craziest morning. So I wake up and see that one of my followers on twitter. Get this, she decided to follow me, is in my State for the weekend and is at the beach. So I decide to post a tweet about how cool it is to have a fan in my state. She says https://twitter.com/icymarieee/status/1132254816670048256

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/EpVo5SwX8fKdRsZ0rsYpUWmJxvdgFRIhkKnoQgfMyLM/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1132254990834315264/KI_m22jT_bigger.jpgqueen 👑 (@icymarieee)

Myrtle Beach sun hits different https://discordapp.com/assets/381baae5679b73dc27b754329324491d.svghttps://discordapp.com/assets/779fb0d7cf9afd16249ff8f82f0450e4.svg

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/lQwY1T1BVz0JbqOkH01A3E3pWITtfjr6DVC875uPsSw/https/pbs.twimg.com/media/D7aTuqgX4AMGMaJ.jpg%3Alarge?width=400&height=300

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

So I say: https://twitter.com/Scope2Mars/status/1132259050178174977

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/TnQx3y8JvJMneEpLhw3H-gdYKr2E1TF8_ypKgWvMV-s/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1067808198256730112/Wsqujzb9_bigger.jpgScope2Mars (@Scope2Mars)

@icymarieee Hey look at that, I have a fan that lives in my STATE. Things are starting to look up!

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

Then she says: https://twitter.com/icymarieee/status/1132259257364230144

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/EpVo5SwX8fKdRsZ0rsYpUWmJxvdgFRIhkKnoQgfMyLM/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1132254990834315264/KI_m22jT_bigger.jpgqueen 👑 (@icymarieee)

@Scope2Mars no hun. I’m not a fan and I don’t live there. Goodbye.

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

SO I am like cool. But it brings up my thoughts on an article I wrote a while back: https://twitter.com/Scope2Mars/status/1132260668273582087

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/TnQx3y8JvJMneEpLhw3H-gdYKr2E1TF8_ypKgWvMV-s/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1067808198256730112/Wsqujzb9_bigger.jpgScope2Mars (@Scope2Mars)

Well I hope you have a good weekend nonetheless: https://t.co/QLmizk0png

Good bye, love. https://t.co/VtHLphIDSo

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

Basiclly in the article I am asking, "Why do people follow if all they are going to do is be combative, contray, and troll?"

No one has answered that question yet. Anyway the crazy woman that is following me and does not realize she could unfollow me, block me, delete the tweet herself, tell me to:

https://twitter.com/icymarieee/status/1132261178749652998

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/EpVo5SwX8fKdRsZ0rsYpUWmJxvdgFRIhkKnoQgfMyLM/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1132254990834315264/KI_m22jT_bigger.jpgqueen 👑 (@icymarieee)

@Scope2Mars great thanks. can you delete your twitter under my pic please

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/bXJWV2Y_F3XSra_kEqIYXAAsI3m1meckfLhYuWzxIfI/https/abs.twimg.com/icons/apple-touch-icon-192x192.pngTwitter

Um..How about NO!

Yeah that is my news for the day. Basically don't follow people on twitter if you are not a fan of what they have to offer, and don't ask them to delete their material because you have a social networking defect.

Better application of social networking skills can be found here: https://twitter.com/Scope2Mars/status/1132261040023134208

https://images-ext-1.discordapp.net/external/TnQx3y8JvJMneEpLhw3H-gdYKr2E1TF8_ypKgWvMV-s/https/pbs.twimg.com/profile_images/1067808198256730112/Wsqujzb9_bigger.jpgScope2Mars (@Scope2Mars)

3 Common Questions That Stress People Out — And What to Ask Instead https://t.co/rgePk5mhDQ I thought this was rather innovative. You all should try it.

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I now have three arena’s I can play in the field of role-playing characters. The Dream Weaver, Driskill Pureblood, and Lucille Succulemuch. Though each character brings something new to the table and have their own stories. Each share a lot of the same favorite appeals. Anal Sex (Giving), Anal Virginity, Intelligent Characters, Face-Fucking, Magic Users, Excessive Semen.

Which I am sure if I was to devise a project with all three characters together, would make for one explosive time.

Names are really important when it comes to character development. I made Lucille Succlemuch to introduce her to Mizuki Nagano, the goddess of the Amazon’s and for the life of me, I didn’t know what to call her. The goddess did not mind the name Sarah, but that is the name of The Switch-Hitter, https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/sarah-the-switch-hitter and I really did not want to confuse my readers. I promise I have not forgotten her and she is sure to make a feature in this next set of adventures.

We all need friends. I personally have so few friends in my very real and hectic life. At least no one I could share my thoughts about https://lewdua.com or how sexy Mizuki Nagano is to me. I can not tell my friends of family that I am the creator of Sarah the Switch-Hitter and have similar stories of my own, of meeting a woman in the airport bathroom and making her climax so hard she left me her card to seek her out for anther excursion.

/

That is why I crafted this blonde, red lipped, beauty with a shaft to match my own. So that I could express my desires in a form that would be more becoming of a Futanari Lover.

With little to do I am happy to introduce Lucille Succlemuch and to inform you all that the goddess Mizuki Nagano was very pleased with her.

That is pretty awesome considering the trolls that have shown some distaste with my choice of artistic expression. To my detractors, be sure to Succlemuch!

I am going to take a brief moment to share with you, my wonderful fans an interesting way I have decided to help you all interact with some of my original characters. If It was not for https://www.hentai-foundry.com/user/Sylvya/profile I never would have found this place and her use of the site is very inspiring: https://www.f-list.net/c/Sylvya%20Felstorm/ I was really enjoying the fact that she is into 'snowballing,' like I am!

It is called the F-List: https://www.f-list.net/c/dreamweaver2019/ At the moment I only have the Dream Weaver uploaded and have displayed a few images you all might have become accustomed to, but as an example of what the site is capable of providing creators and storytellers, he will serve you well.

I would have used the Dream Weaver's profile pic as an avatar but at the moment F-List is having trouble recognizing my offers so I had to settle for the default system. Of course you all my fair better than I in that regard. As you can see, I was able to add a lot of new details about this particular character and not bore you too much with information you are already aware of and have plenty of room to add more information and smutty sexy scenes that you all have come to appreciate.

There are up to 50 slots that can be filled and all of it is done with the expressed purpose of desiring to role-play with others and have your original character serve a more active role in the virtual world. I think that is amazing.

I had loved so much the idea of crossing universes and talents with @AbysmalZero https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/dream-weaver-the-twins that I thought I wonder how far can I really take this adventure of my character fulfilling himself and pleasing others and when I bumped into the f-list I felt I might have found the answer.

I have in mind of bringing sexy back with a whole new slot and character development for Sarah The Switch Hitter: https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/sarah-the-switch-hitter and I want to use the f-list for that purpose since there is room to have up to 100+ original characters on one server.

Before I forget, I bookmarked 2 original characters I found very interesting: https://www.f-list.net/c/A%20Squirrel%20Girl and https://www.f-list.net/c/Sunday <<The squirrel I had planned on pitching to @Tina-Raze or at least the prospect of her finding room for some of her Furries in this very furry friendly world. I don't know she might already be there and I had not bumped into her yet.>>

The last one, Ms. Sunday, I had planned on asking her creator if I could do something similar to what I did with Abysmal Zero's characters and devise a plot in which Ms. Sunday meets the Dream Weaver and after a few sets of illustrated dialogue finds a way to allow our compatible traits: Cervical Penetration; Corruption; Cum; Degradation; Excessive Semen; Face-Fucking; Rimming (Giving); Rimming (Receiving); come together to make a nice piece of illustrated artwork that each of us could find pleasure in. I like the fact that she is 44 and still role-playing. I hope she answers my email soon and says, "Sure big boy show me what you got!"

Of course she will be disappointed if I don't finish this APT: 1012 illustrated short before beginning or committing myself to any new projects.

What I really like about the site is there expressed desire to have people create characters that have nothing to do with the real person or creator..they don't want to hear about the authors problems, politics, social lives, this is strictly about the fantasy and a good way to be someone else all the time, in character and building a world of fantasy to aid escaping our present realities that can be rather lonely and daunting. I love it and wonder to myself how would most of my friends fair if they were to join me on the:

https://www.f-list.net/

The first three publications of APT: 1012 have been doing well to enthrall the attention of adolescents and young adults. Yes 22 years of age is still considered young adult to me.

I have this thing about gauging maturity based on the lever of a person’s sexual performance and I know I was simply teasing pussies until I turned twenty-five or twenty-six and felt I was sufficiently and adult when I could make a woman cream her pants by playing with her nipples.  

My childhood really ended at the age of twelve but I did not know what I was doing until I was about twenty four. Prior to losing my virginity, my mother would tell me as I would sit in my room and craft stories, she would tell me to never forget about my race and people and to be sure to incorporate them as much as I can when I illustrate. She believed we never had enough representation in literature, movies, television, in anything really.  

As I have been crafting APT: 1012, I have been tickled pink at the amount of ethinic culture I’ve been able to cram in such few pages and wondering how she would respond to this story.  

She might say something like, “ You could have shown black people in a better light, why are they so materialistic, basing life on money, sex, and abusing one another?”  

I am sure I’d laugh and defend my work by stressing my dependency on the truth of our culture and though I am a dream weaver and could have crafted an illusion to appease our private sensibilities. I dare not! To sacrifice the image of the African American culture, I’ve been surrounded by my whole life and made to cut corners in showcasing the truth of our present rape culture, just because it makes you feel bad, is an insult to the word truth. If you feel bad, that is a good thing. It means you’ve not lost your ability to empathize and through this lens of pain, you might decide to dream of something better.  

Knowing it is out there because anything is better than what we we’ve been given.  

In my mind, I happen to live in a rather zebra patterned spectrum. Where white robed people tend to glow with bronze and gold auras and, “evil,” are those robed in black hoods and hued in purple flakes. No grey areas and any little room for error. I have this desire to achieve greatness and have crowns set aside for the white robed golden arrayed people who desire to stand with me in my efforts to paint murals of love; on barren walls; of those that have trouble defining what purity is.  

I refuse to believe in making evil, no matter where it originated from, ‘necessary.’  

I don’t wish to learn from it. I don’t want to be around it and when I see it, I’ve only decided to talk about it to highlight what to stay away from. If it was up to me, I’d not even perfect the illustration of rape, but would instead, plaster it with lines of yellow and black caution tape and set in a garbage heap of memories to be burned away.    

It took me a while to really decide how I wanted to showcase the altercation between Dino and Victoria. A lot of artists have attempted to depict rape scenes or hardcore sex and I always feel they miss what rape is. In my imagination, because I’ve never been raped, nor have desired to rape anyone, I see the woman struggling while the man seeks to conquer her. Breaching her but because he is such an inept person and had to result to rape, he ejaculates before he can even get in and due to his inability to please a woman, he takes his anger out on her, beating her to sleep and this is why Victoria ends up in the hospital. Remember the old bastard is 65 year of age and wouldn’t be able to get up to meet the challenge anyway.  

Other artists I’ve seen depicting rape, have made the mistake of illustrating the woman eventually taking pleasure throughout the act and if she finds pleasure, it can’t be seen as rape.  

I wanted to give the audience a defining image for the Dream Weaver’s vindication and justification for his following actions. He would not have seen the act but when he visits the Apartment 1012 he would have seen evidence of something horrible happening and he will need that image to finally give him the will to pull the hammer.        

Nearly a year ago I had mentioned a particular artist that had entrapped my imagination and really inspired my desire to get back into the world of art.

https://adventvoice.newgrounds.com/news/post/1007668

I could not name her, I could not place her, I just saw a piece of her art and was spellbound. Well I have found her. I was working on devising an outlook for my original character Victoria from APT: 1012 and using several online databases like Google and Bing to assist in reference information for Modern Femme Fatal's. I was given an entire array of images and I saw that painting of a woman eatting planets again and knew I found the artist that had eluded me from a year ago.

https://twitter.com/tanyashatseva

http://www.tanyashatseva.com/

It is very amusing to think a woman eating planets can be used as a theme to describe the Modern Femme Fatal.

Would I consider Victoria to be that kind of woman, one who eats planets? https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/apt-1012-cover-page I think she has the potential for it. Where i desire to hold the universe in my hand, she desires to control and gather everything up for her own pleasure. A black whole and the center of her own universe. It is too early in her story to suggest that this had a lot to do with the abuse she suffered. Had she realized her actions would have led to robbery and rape, I wonder if she would have changed how she treated people. Of course I am not justifying Dino's actions by any means..I still think he is the scum of the universe!

Of course as the Russian artist has depicted so well in her works of art, for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction; and seeking to ignore the recourse Dino took to tip the scales of Victoria's need to eat the planets of his universe with her laughter and need to ridicule and debase those that could not afford her favors. Well we are made to wonder, if Tanya's definition of the Femme Fatal is not spot on!