I have an artistice love affaire that I can not share with my family.

Friends like @Qira @NyanaCreation @HeadMistressSeven  @Cyberdevil @ThiefOfVoid @Dahila-K @bmesias063 @Spedmallet @CohensKleineMotte

@XwaynecoltX  @Linda-mota and my numerous fans make my avenue of expression here on NewGrounds that much more enjoyable and sacred because it is something I don't talk to with anyone else to or that, I can. It is nice to know they are around to lend an ear.  Oh, my family know that I am artist and have had this raw talent since I was young. What they don't know is...well maybe they do~ I don't know what they know~ All I know is I am so tired of being haunted by the idea of them never knowing of  the wonderful things I can do with my hands.

   To be in a home where everyone asks you, "What do you think about this? How do you feel about that?" Knowing they would never understand because they have never been where you have been or desire to listen.

This idea that movies, books, prose, art and liturature is just not popluar anymore and our generation does not have the patience to ingest all of the information that is infront of them or wants to has never hindered me from producing a few thousand pages of works that I hid under my bed or in volumes, none will see until....

That is an open-ended possibility and dealing with unimagintive people in my daily life makes me all the more greatful for Newgrounds and all it has to offer for us creative writers and illustrators. An inactive imagination is so disturbing to think about. You mean to tell me, there is nothing but what is in front of you that matters. Half the reason why hanging out with "Dead-Head's" did not last too long. The same chords for a musical number with not desire to cut a chord or breakthrough a monotinous routine would set me off. My artistic expression has been set on an idea of breaking limits. erradicating our comfort zones, Insisting that none of us   die with our music still inside of us.

When I was 17 I had a dream that spurs me to this day. I was roused from my slumber and could not drown the pain of it. Even a blazing hot shower. When I was done I was so red, the steam took an hour to fade from my face. Blood wailing, I swore to myself I'd do everything in my power to never be a 35 year old, made to hide from the world because I suffered from a lack of purpose. In my dream I slept in my mothers basement on her couch because of all the excuses that have filled the world with defeatisim to the brim.

  I never wanted to be made to stand in someone's soup kitchen as Olvier Twist, asking for a, "L'ill More?" Never!

I did not like the idea that "to be humble," meant no ambition and I would be demonized for it.

I have befriended an artist by the name of Emma Visca. She is a Scottish artist dubbed "The Naked Painter," who loves to quote Allen Ginsberg, who said, "Follow your inner moonlight; don't hide the madness." She has epilespy, but you would never know it. With this condition: (and I really don't like using the phrase but due to my lack of a better expression I am forced to suggest her extra brain activity is such) she can devise methods of creation that allow for a:

Countdown to her exhibition at Gracefield Art Centre for Spring Fling 26th-28th May 2018. Come along to Bonnie Scotland and spend some time with artists from Dumfries and Galloway. If you happen to be in her neck of the woods I would suggest supporting her.

Then there is Ed Piskor: Author of the New York Times best-selling series Hip Hop Family Tree.  who I really want to get to know or at least send a letter to  one day and just let him know how much his art is appreciated by artists like me that believe in the Freedom Of Expression.

This list goes on and on of the number of men and women that have the gift and I suppose one day I would love to put all of them together in one folio volume and find myself through my artistic expression in the back, tucked away nicely in the number or artists that refused to "Die with their music still inside of them." I want so much to share this ambition with my family because no matter how secure we are in our lives we should always seek to push the envelope and reach for the stars.

Natasa Ilincic is from Edinburgh Scotland and she is a wonderful artist with a real smooth style. I always imagine Elfin Lied Opening theme song Lilium to fill her home as she draws. She has just that fine-tuned a hand.

This is certainly what fills my own home as I contemplate on the next discourse I can express through the white canvas. I was 5 years old when my father asked me, "Son, what do you want to do with your life?" I was 5 years old when I told him, "I want to give the world art and keep them dreaming of a better tomorrow, remind them of why we hunt for prosperity, I want to give the world hero's." I stayed in Comic-shops for a long time in my youth. Studied every mode of expression I could find. Then I heard there were those seeking to stomp out the need for liturature, prose, poems, art. So my love for art became intertwined. Believing if she is not fulfilled then I must satisfy her.

I wanted to go into further depth of Thief of Void & her adventures with the Dream Weaver by sharing with you all a minor explination behind the motivation for this project.

https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2018/05/23/illustrated-shorts-explained/

So much more can be added and discussed and I suppose that is risk we take when begining discussions that prove to be relevant to family and friends. I really felt I could not say enough of some of the issues I bring up. Nor could I say enough about the number of years it took me to finally be able to say to someone, none of this information is given with callous intentions. Merely a desire to never be forgotten in the flow of time.

Thank you all so much for reading and showing your supprot for this project.

I did this story because I was asked to forget the past. To let things die, to not even try to explain why.

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/thief-of-void

Then I think about my little brother and my son who for nearly a decade or more if they never read this illustrated short will continue to not know why men like the Dream Weaver exist. Why there is a group of men and women out there that keep their eyes on the horizon and wait for the sun to rise upon their desires and aspirations. It really burned me up to think my little brother or my son might grow up in this world thinking a real life role model did not care enough about them to stay around in there moments of  economic, social, and everyday depression.

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/thief-of-void-and-the-dream-weaver-dig-deep

I don't think I will ever truely be forgiven for it. I don't think I will ever truly forgive myself, but at least I was able to take the opportunity to enlighten those important to me on the "Why" of such an important issue.

I sought to illustrate just little pieces of some really important real life events that have been set into motion, which daily as I read the paper, was clearly so those of Meritcratic mindset, those of and uncontrable need to retaine wealth off the backs of the everyday layman, that I personally survived in hopes of having enough to care for the people I love.

https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2017/05/07/the-state-of-things/

https://adventgradepress.com/?s=Workforce+solutions

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/thief-of-void-the-dream-weaver-page-2

Because of the 50 year defecit seen in America, canniblism ensued and all of the heathens came out to play.  Seven years of pushing back supports of castrastion of men, of land grabs, job security, and simply the right to walk down the street without the influence of someone in an orgainzed gang.

https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2017/09/27/3-days-on-kings-hwy/

Men like the Dream Weaver were asked to let it all go. That is a tough pill to swallow and I wanted to illustrate for everyone that knows me just how hard it is for that to happen for people. I can use words all day, I can sing songs about it but I don't think anything really changes until we can see it. I don't think anything really changes until we can visuals ourselves in that persons shows, realte with them, want to help, cry with them, or be as strong as them to have gone through it all and be able to say, "I survived!"

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/thief-of-void-the-dream-weaver-page-3

I also liked the fact that dispite the Dream Weaver's gult of leaving his son and his failures in life, The Thief of Void can talk to him about love and moving forward and that there is a castle in the sky waiting for him. That was a nice touch, somthing Dreams are made of.

After displaying my little friend I was so surprised at the response. Such an invention is worth everything you (My fans)  have put into it. Loving the applause and celebration of it's existance and reason for being. "If our castle should some how fall, it will be no where but here."

   Loyalt,y like that  are what dreams are made of. Makes anyone secure in love and happy to have someone around. Would never have imagined I could have found that in my "Dreams of Drone." I am glad I did though. I am also very happy to have https://nyanacreation.newgrounds.com/   view my work and find such a wonderful song to help celebrate my little friend.

  RobotDay2018 is going to be something very special this year I can tell. I really hope all of you can make it out for this jam fest of creative ideas and support  https://mindchamber.newgrounds.com/news/post/1012875 and his very eclectic range of ideas to generate more support for NG's. What a wonderful world of creation we have been allowed to share in.

My "Dream of Drone," was developed off of the idea that some time soon our world is going to become a lot more technologically advanced. Recently I have heard about the idea of cameras in grocery stores having the ability to mark what you buy and without having any of your physcial information will be able to transfer money from your bank, pay-pal or credit cards right into the store for your corresponding purchase. (All of this from a camera.) Now I am sure Amazon moguls like Bezo who has the money secured to have his own security system to safe gaurd him fron Identity theft will find a way to sell this idea to the general public. He will assure people that none of new tech or robotics will harm anyone. They are not set out to digitally bankrupt anyone, just make it more convient for a person to shop for their food.

  My little owl frined has glitches, when it gets beside itself it believes it is entitled to do as it likes. Take what it wants just because he is flying around the city and influeced by the enviroment it is viewing. This glitch has to constantly be offset with positive feedback and a daily course in programming eticate...not so much teaching the drone table manners, but teaching it that just because I walk into the store; I am not asking you to take money out of my bank account.

  In case of the owl, Just because we happen to go to the bank, I am not asking you to preload my bitcoin wallet, by cyphoning from automated online systems.

They have finally made a movie of the greatest band on earth. A band who's singles helped to give an edge to block busters like Highlander and a Knights Tale!

I am tingling all over because every since I was a kid my game room was not complete without the lyrical spider webs of The Poor boy, from a poor family.

Genius always has an EXCENTRIC side.

I will have to hide away for a month just to get my fill of the sounds of QUEEN. While I am away digging deep in my cave for inspiration to complete my visions of Inkjoy. I will leave you with my favorite song from this wonderful band.

I wanted to take a minute and ask those that read my posts and blogs and view my art work, What do you know about a man by the name of Lee Bellinger: Auther of Independant Living and a believer is the dangers of Sharia Law and probably would not mind my opions on the 2nd Amendment: https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/controversial-gifts.

He believers the Survival of West will depend on Eastern Europe: Investors and travlers alike can find great value propositions in the "New West," and he considers the fastest growing countries in Europe to be Poland, Hungrary, and Baltic countries. He thinks London is on it's way of getting rid of free speech all together and any talks about Hitler can cause a person to be imprisoned. He sites a  Scotish comodian by the name of "Count Dankula," who was convicted of a hate crime for teaching his dog to do a Hitler salute on video.

(He has never me @TheShadling). <<I have not either but I want to>>I feel like If I mention her enough times she will pop up on my radar and demand my worship...which I would gladly do without question.

He also made a wonderfully insightful point in his dialouges. Can you imagine that if you speak to a 25 year old today, they were 10 when NYC was hit. That means what ever they know about Jimmy Carter, Regan, or the Cold War comes from history books that are filled with propaganda based upon who's side of the political spectrum a person is on. If you wanted to believe your own government staged a devestating attack against there own people. There was a book for you. If you wanted to believe that we needed to go to war over it, there was a history book for you too. History proved to be relative.

   Anyone that was for elimating the draft back then was a problem child from most common sense thinking people. End the draft while in the middle of a confrontation was the worst idea ever and will forever be a bad idea. Lieing to the people about ending a war, while in the middle of one in which you destroyed everything and have not plan of fixing what you messed up, was a bad idea.

The old man Bellinger also gives advice as to which Bitcoin to avoid investing in; in hopes of finding the right one.

(I find it ironic that he named nearly all of them, then says order his book to find out where to invest....is that code for stay away from Bitcoin?)

!!Headline of the year: Profit from Bitcoin Without Owning Any!!

Right after tempting you with bitcoing magic dust, he starts talking about Social Credit Scores...The Chinese government envisions a system that will allow the trustworthy to roam everywhere under heaven while making it hard for the discredited to take a single step.

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/scientific-american-tehc-love-affaire

My bank teller laughed at me the other day because I suggested that I don't like the idea of our tech knowing so much about us, She asked me, "If I thought cell-phones were bad?" I told her the ones that are wired by police and used to incriminate people through an invasion of privacy, that is only proven after those investigating have all of your information.  After all of this data dropping old man Bellinger wants to know what is important to people, Privacy? Health? Leisure? Personal finacne investing? Disaster prepping? Threats? Retirement? Political threats? Geopolitical  threats? I personally think it makes for good science fiction, I just can not put a lot of stock in what he suggests because well a lot of it is speculation:

The one truth he does give is the Idea of Anibiotics v.s. Silver and he pulls for  Colloidal Silver Generators and because I personally use one and have been healthy a long time I agree that doctors now-a-days think everyone is sick and they need their help...They are soo important that if you don't go to them, you will die. Better not go to the hospital without health care insurance or something, those in charge of the hospitals will put you on a list of DOA so fast, you'll get whip lash and swear up and down that is not why you came to see him...

Anyway I was just wondering if anyone else has read his works?

My blogs have made it to a lot of countries and in a day will gather a lot of people to one place.

Then I will see a country that is trying to reach out to me; someone in Columbia and I will ask myself, "Now what did I write that would seem benifical to a person in Columbia?"

Maybe it was the art. I suppose it had that Southern Flavor to it and just the right amount of vibrancy that is associated with that country. https://avproductionsblog.wordpress.com/2018/05/01/they-have-called-me-a-degenerate/#more-1279

Columbia is one hot spot for all sorts of amazing stories and wonderful people that understand art. I checked my emails and did not find my contacts reflecting who was looking for me...They did visit my contact and about page. It was a nice surprise to wake up to...Columbia. You are a treasure of a country and so are your people.

http://www.artnews.com/2013/10/10/met-honors-nelson-rockefellers-vision/

http://www.artnews.com/2015/05/05/morning-links-prado-vs-museum-of-royal-collections-edition/

I spoke to my brother not too long ago about my work on NewGrounds and how he should get in where he fit's in when it comes to my art and stories. (We will have to wait and see.) Now you might be asking, "What does Columbian Art and my brother have in common?"

Well my brother lives in California, he is in the Air Force and he works a lot of top secret cyber security jobs...YAY!! (That has yet to be seen.) The point is with the worlds new fangled Tech, someone can be in one side of world and pretend they are on another...while viewing your work and thanks to Pay-pal recieve funds as if they are in your back yard. Great for finance and keeping Columbians in the loop of American press and technological advancements, just makes it harder for me to believe that everyone who takes the time to read my works is actually from the country that they say they are. Also makes it hard for me to give my little brother information at times; cause well...He is a do gooder with a badge and his brother has a shady past, filled with hopping trains and tagging government buildings with his art....

(Those days are done and I sit and have a quite life with my goats)....

I don't know, maybe in my spare time I did speak to someone from Columbia and just forgot....I don't think I would forget though...Colimbia is too exotic to forget.

I have met some awesome people in my travels. There are many you that have been a fan of mine since the very beginning of this adventure and I think about you al the time as I set out to create stories to entertained and make you think. That is what my friend in Norway (The Art Collector) had to say about my blogs and art work?

Abby Gege: <<<She is soo cool>> 

You really pushed me to think deeper. I want you to know that I really appreciate that. I do not know your name yet. Would u please kindly share it with me, because I do enjoy our friendship. :)

(That last statement threw me for a loop cause you know, the internet is not safe anymore for all that giving out real names and sharing information so freely, but we need that connection sometimes.)

Thief of Void is someone I have come to respect and everytime I listen to her music I know I have met someone that has taken steps in the world I can only dream of. So I tell everyone I know about her tracks and how inspiring her work can really be.

 Then there is Bernice DeLaTorre-ClementVerified accountProtected Tweets
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 Who I can talk to any time about how I feel and will listen and will guide my written materials, edit somethings hear or there if I get a conception wrong verbally. She casts no judgements just listens and like an oracle, whispers truth in my ear.

  Then there is Cyber Devil and I know a lot of you have been given wonderful feedback from him and his imagination knows no limits.

 I get so busy collecting data and stories and committing my time to art that sometimes I miss really important stories and I feel bad: This this guy for instance. In light of what we know about the internet and how full of scams and viruses and people set out to harm our individual ideas of entrepreneurship, I was skeptical of the response I received for this post I did sometime a few years ago: https://adventgradepress.com/2016/10/the-kassandra-project/  (I should not have been though considering I was asking for feedback.) A man in Oregon writes back to me and he is asking about how I can get this story out to people because it happened to him.

I am a victim of this my name is Billy Waddell this is all over cardio county Oregon 97138 this has drove me to 7 suicide attempts since1997 anyone else going through this please contact me when they speak their words come out of my mouth my email is (I can't display all that but he did leave it with me) I BET that all of Clatsop county has neural dust in them even law enforcement. <<His words not mine>>

My friends in Norway, the Philippines who read my written blogs and views my art works and at times gives me so very interesting advice. (Like exercising my creative muscles in the art of hentai...I am so flattered.) To me the art of hentai is the ultimate form of a liberated conversation honestly. It is the one mode that tips the balance between what is excepted, pleasing to the eye, and what makes many of us blush in the night. https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/fanny-meay

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/unapologetic-nature

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/city-walk

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/french-kiss (These pieces where as far as I was going to take that conversation. Moments from a very real past that we can only hope to grow from. Only because as freeing as sex can be, after you come down from the cloud, pleasure places you on, you are left looking for something to equal that moment of elevation. It is hard pressed for many of us to find. It became stressful.)

I was told recently that I can't keep living in the past.

That is true, the story must be told from the beginning though. None will never really understand the Dream Weaver until they start at the beginning and none will never really know where he is going until they are willing to read his story as he unfolds it.

As Thief of Void song suggests, (and I am not shame to admit it.) A lot of us just don't want to be lonely. We reach out to the world so not to lose our minds; unlike most the Dream Weaver knows exactly where he is going. It is because the Dream Weaver and the Advent Voice know exactly where they are going that people who have 20.9K tweets of influence and 2,859 followers would want to take time to listen to a singular voice such as mine. That is not ego by the way. That is realizing that in my search for the keys of Revolution, there are those willing to listen and answer the question that has them all on the edge of their seats.

Is there such a thing as Liberation in OUR TIME or will it remain a Dream?!

With friends like you, anything is possible!

Thank you all for making these past two years’ worth the effort!

https://www.newgrounds.com/art/view/adventvoice/rise

Ok this is a topic that many have let fly under the radar. I suppose because DC comics picked it up and it really should have stayed exclusively a United Kingdom kind of thing.

I really think there should be more emphasis on regional acceptance of a series of stories, espically if the story is specificallly catgorizing issues of a country and region. This series touches on a lot of subjects that are affecting the U.S. as of today, but clearly these socio-econimic discussions poised in the series have more of a touchstone feel when we apply them to where they belong.

 This is half the reason why snap shots in the daily U.S. news papers reporting on issues in China concerning American government workers imprisoned for unacceptable behavior in those countries go under the radar,and are misrepresented and ignored. Especially when the woman is quoting lines like: "Save Sally," and only a few would have fit the context togther.

https://www.chron.com/houston/article/Houston-woman-says-her-detention-in-China-for-6524326.php

They did not mention the quotation I remember in this article, which is a shame, but the moment I read that head line, "Save Sandy," I was immediatly drawn to a chapter in The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo series in which a political prisoner is sending texts and using tech inside of a prison in order to reach the outside world about her predictment. The parallels where uncanny and I thought they were worth mentioning and made this story of "The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo," all the more alluring.

To this day I am made to wonder if Sandy ever made it home, but I am not going to give up hope. Especially when I have similar stories in the greater states of the U.S.A.

Oh yes, education is oh so important in our brave new world.

It seems so many have to have the last word on what is righteous. (People are mad about Bill Cosby, they are mad about Kanye West.) These are the people that inspired you? Really, then continue to be inspired and support them, you are going to join the band wagon and throw them over board because someone else does not like them. What a shame. Then you are not ready for the world that is coming.

You think you are the only one that is hurting. You believe that no one cares because they are locking up all the role models. Television is your role model? My friends we are creators, dreamers. Beings that have the same if not more talent as the next man.  (Blame it on my ADD) that I don't listen to you all whine about the flaws of man. Flaws that have yet to be proven as so and the moment your "role models," say something approving you are supporting them again. Tell me, did you think Bill Cosby to you a lie because he was caught with his hands in the cookie jar? Everything he told still applies, just remember he is an actor, so at no time could ever have said we knew the man truly, he has lived his whole life by the script. Just as Kanye. Always paid to say something and know nothing outside of the script. "That is your role model." I feel bad for you.

A day is going to come my friends and when it does, when you are alone in your room and they ask you what do you believe, "What will you answer them?" You all know who I am by now and if you don't let this song help you see the light.