After receiving such mixed reviews about discussions poised in "SilveWOLF," https://adventvoice.newgrounds.com/news/post/1010515 I have decided to postpone any further search of this elusive club until I estabilsh a readied defense for a genre of art that seems to be getting the bad end of the accredidated stick. Since I have been made to worry about the "sensitivities," of avid readers and viewers of NG's material and content, I've decided to stage a defense for the creative minds of the Macbre, Beautfiul Bizzare, Heavy Metal Magazine, Asylum Magazine and anyother genre that can only have achieved the likes of great visuals and detailed effects from the minds of EX-CONS.

Presenting an idea to the world that most of these ecletic arts, illustrations, and views of the world originated from the bowels of prisons.

I think of men like Marque De Sade; an erotic novelist whose acclaim was originated from the Bastiel of France. Dante's video game originating from the trilogy of his comedic expression of traveling from the Inferno's to Paradise and was only materialized through his all too real ostrinization from his home land in Florence Italy.

I was applaused at the idea of my presenting, "Prison Art," or the Dark Arts to this round table discussion and those viewing would turn to the likes of Manson and Jody Aries.

As models for Macabre liturature; This demonization of what can be a grand tale of Redemption, Renewal, and Reconstructed Vision is base and of bad taste.

 Every piece of art was depicted by someone that has had to do a little time and as you can see there minds are pretty awesome. I am sure those that have seen the movie of Jet Lee in "The One," understand the concept of the soul seeking physical or incorperal assension; The Matrix comes to mind when so many fans applauded, "Mr. Smith's" desires to be free from the stench of his virutal box. "Prison," but I must suffer the corrupted conversation of those that would suggest the work of an Ex-Conn is not to be counted.

How sad your life must be; you'd never be entertained by the writings of Monte de Cristo.

I wonder what Ted Dekker would have to add to this conversation.

 who's writtings and art I've witnessed restore a many a man's soul who is locked away in the man made catacombs of the very prisons I am asked to ignore or speak less about. To forget I have seen. Michal Jackson sang about Dirty Diana whicih I always felt that was about Michael Christopher Diana but again that could be stretching things and I did not come here to make fun of Mike and his creepy ways. I came here to talk about how Babylon A.D. was given wonderful accolades and Mathieu Kassovitz was considered a fine director and writer dispite his, "How shall we say, Colorful Behavior."

Kassovitz is also known for his outspokenness, frequently making controversial comments on socio-political issues.

In November 2005, riots spread throughout suburbs of Paris following the deaths of two teenagers of black and North African descent, who were electrocuted while avoiding police ID checks and questioning. The question of whether young men were victims of racial discrimination set off a chain reaction of violence in schools, gyms, and police stations, and an aggressive response from then-Home Office Minister Nicolas Sarkozy. Sarkozy stirred controversy and outrage when he said the rioters were "rabble" and should be "cleansed" from the banlieues (suburbs) with a "fire hose".

This making me sure he and those around him have done some time in someone's lock up and developed art worthy of my posts and visual consideration.

ART IS MADE TO BE SEEN!

Spedmallet has looked into my work and apparently there is something that caught there interest. It is only fair that those whom take an interest in me are given a fair shake in posting rights and display of there work. That means in laymen's terms, many of you should think about interacting with  https://spedmallet.newgrounds.com/ a little more because they thought about interacting with me. After you speak to this Level 25 artist about me maybe they will tell you weather or not they are human, male, female, old, young. Something because I don't have much for you but a link posting and the fact that they think I am worth Scouting.

  They have not told me yet why they are interested in my art, prose, writings, or thoughts.

Garbage whistle?!

  Is that supposed to be a reflection of my product thus far, cause you know, (He/she is ranked a police sergant) What do these badges really mean, Gear they own is toilet paper. Sigh* I was not looking for the best in the world to support me, I am glad to be Scouted by anyone. I am just concerned if the following is supposed to be a relfection of what my general audiance thinks about me and if so, "What is that to me, anyway, I just create things, no one said you have to like it!"

  We get what we put in for I guess. ( Total Medals Earned: 84 (From 14 different games.))) He or she is great gamer though.

I am the kind of person that does not read manuels before I tinker with my work. It was one of the things my little broher could not stand about me when we were kids growing up.

He loved the game Adventure Quest. Spent a lot of money playing and winning medals and much like Spedmallet love the art that went into the games and the story. Only problem was he could not create the stories and had little imagination. He needed me for that, and supply I would. I knew all the cheat codes, all the key locks, all the mage switch power boards and what ever a Dungon Master would devise because I loved games as a kid. The mechanics behind them and creating the worlds that are all involved.

Another problem...I am the one that would get all girls.

So my brother would not let me play anymore and we have this giant rift in what we think is important about the game. Is it winning or is it the journey that gets you there. For me I was the RPG player. He was the Shoot-em up Hack and Slash, PC loving Mayehm player. Still is to this day, but he keeps his personal life far away from me, and the last game we tag teamed together was Adventure Quest.

Then I grew up real fast, decided to travel, and lost touch with everyone but the flip side to having lived in the woods and alone and far from a computer or switchboard is the fact that I have these amazing stories now.

Like Silver Wolf.

Anyway I had great stories when I was kid as well. They are all gone now and I am looking to open up seals to some real DreamWorks after a while.

I just hope me and my new scout don't run into the problems that arise among creative thinkers. Like my brother and I, who I really need to get in contact with and see if he is willing to tag along for this ride.

https://www.instagram.com/kingdom_aige/ <<If he will stop working out for ten mintues and listen we might get some work done.>> 

 He is in the Air Force. I don't know what he is doing for fun anymore. If he even knows how to have fun. I don't think he is invloved with any Covens or anything like that. I don't think he would tell me if he was.

He won't answer his big brothers emails. Shame on him. Maybe my Scout can hit him up for me and let him know that his brother wants to work on some ideas that can make us all some money and get us in that Hall of Fame of Dreamers.

Keeping my fingers Crossed.

I am going to begin my search for the elusive Silver Wolf. I am free from prison now and my art has reached enough people to where I am suffencitly scouted and desired and it turns enough heads to where even my sons mother, who has turned into some kind of vampuric-succubus-BlackLives-Matter-Video-Gaming-Whore of zero ambition besides defrauding all potential investors of merchandise and investesments.

You know its one thing to rob people because your hungry, poor, and the world is seeking to annihilate you through political movements as depicted in the latest block buster the Purge.

There is justification somewhere in the middle of the action and some sort of ability for a person to have pitty on you, enough to throw a dog a bone. It's another thing entirely to own a house, a car, a truck, every console known to man, a computer and a closet full of name brand designes and homemade material that you pawn off on ebay every month, and still have to stoop to robbing people, false advertising and keeping a son away from his father.

 Everytime I think about her, I wonder how I could have ever loved her.

As I contemplate the theft and usery, I dream of enlisting the aid of a few members from the local, (they might be a National) Coven, SilverWOLF

I was made to travel very far and wide to find you.
What do you know about Silver Wolf?
Is it a book, a person, a coven?
Is she a woman or a man? Does she smell of sun flowers or snow storms?

I know I ask to many questions without revealing myself. I just want to know if I am on the right trail?

I read some of your works and I thought you might have heard of this Silver Wolf and might have known what I am to expect from such a one as thee?

To assist in the retrival of my "Lost Merchandise."

It would take a stone cold blooded hound from H-E-Double-TooTh-Picks, to deal with my son's mother.

To keep a child away from his real father because, as she claims, I am too violent. I would not let her have the freedom of being a trolloping whore whenever she felt like, or because money was tight. I'd stiffle her creativity because I wouldn't appreciate her chopping nob, for a role in a movie.

Little Brat!

https://adventvoice.newgrounds.com/news/post/1009978
The Variant @ C2E2‏ @the_variant @CharliexRocket

I am too viloent because I am willing and able to contract with anyone as long as they are fair to the group and don't stab me in the back. I would ask the leader of this Coven of Wolves to sniff out the mother of my son, or bring her to me. She knows I'm violent enough to pay for such a movement and runs like a wild marre farther and farther from my iron grip. Desiring to see me wither and die without the joy of my son.

She is a Comic-Con junkie, living her days inside of her fantasies of being a heroin andn married some slug from outer space.

All I want is to see my boy before they contaminate his mind with all sorts of ideas like, "We will love you no matter what you do son, It's ok to fail in life, we will be here to pick you back up, we love you, even if you marry your ex-girlfiriends boy-friend from last year."

Yeah I'm violent alright.

That's why I am looking for SilverWOLF~ I want to know how they feel about the destruction of core values in family life and if they'd pay the little pixie a visit. Just encourage her to make the right decision. For the child.

A Son; the first born, no less, of a very strong willed man, a kind man. He desires you no harm. Just Peace.

(I would not have much of a story if I made all this fuss about Covens, wolves, witches, and dark doors that need never be opened. I would not be much of a story teller. So I hope the motif  has been solidifed for the few that have been reading and following.)

Manipulation: is a ver real component for those that practice any art, Good or Bad.

One must manipulate. Now the idea that I could have been such a wonderful person, lover, friend and soon to be father without the use of manipulation is hard for a lot of people to grasp.

I hope SilverWOLF does not feel I am manipulating them, by asking for assistance. If they ever did, I would go no further with the mission and she'd be free to pursue her desires of keeping my son from me. When we were in college, my son's mother could not stand me. I had this wonderful ability to speak and the world would bend to me. Along with her. The I was sealed away in a box.

Bad end to a good guy. Now I have this gift that I desire to give to my son and I am denied by this horrible woman and her slim ball of a husband. The spineless ant of a creature; those where the only men I'd ever allow her to play with, the spineless I could do away with if they began to disturb the natural order of things.

Black Amethyst : is more than a book. It is more than my story an a way to speak to my son about the love of a father he never knew about. It is a manual filled with messages to young men about what is expected of them from the stand point of a man and not the cloistering ideas of Bohieman women. It shows you that many can claim a gift to be the figmant of one's imagination. They can say their are no such things as good and evil. That all of it is relative to who we are around, but I do not want my boy to ever be fooled into believing it's ok to dress up like a PoWERPUFF GIRL, just cause his mother and father are not bold enough to give him more to aspire to.

I pray in my hearts of hearts that all of you with children will pass this treasure to them, so they will know a man is allowed to excerise his GRIT for the ones he loves.

 I am happy to have completed the book: https://www.smashwords.com/profile/view/AVplusME I did it all by myself you know. It was a heats cry of three years in a box. My heart yearned to be near my family and to leave something behind for my child. Every word crafted to create the picture of a time and place of a prince, ostricized from his rightful place and having no fear of death. To forever be remembered as the Weaver of Dreams for those that might have lost their dream along the way.

 If I could convince one of the SilverWOLVES to deliver the book to my son and his mother that would be nice. I've sent messages to all invloved thinking she would read it, but why would she, she knows how it ends.

She knows very well how it felt to leave me in my prison cell, knowing she could have said something, anything to defend me. If she had an ounce of loyalty inside of her. The witch came to see me one time while I was incarcerated claiming she did not know who to trust. She was confused. They claim so many horrible things about you. I don't want MY son to be around someone so violent. I don't want him to carry your name. I hate to leave you like this but well. Good bye.

The cell doors closed and I wrote every word vowing when they freed me BLACK AMETHYST would see the light of day and everyone would know what betrayal feels like.

The world would feel all of my pain, my fire, my fury, and my son would look at the television, asking his mother, "Who is that man Mommy, that speaks to people about Truth, Justice, Compassion, Virtue, Forgiveness, Loyalty, PEACE!?"

Who is this man that can go into dens of wolves bars of Nightingales and teach them to dream?

"That is your father."

North Wales Daily Beast News:

Warning to parents over Fortnite game after pervert tries to groom boy through his Xbox

Mum-of-two was sitting with her son as he played when she heard online gamer asking her son about sex

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Lucy Clarke-Billings

12:36, 7 APR 2018

 Clippings like what you have read above is the reason why I can not stand the news.

Writers are allowed to say whatever it is they want, unverified or not, and call it news. A snapshot of information is given and people run crazy with the information and claim XBOX, PS8, and their Cellphones are evil.

They won't discuss how it was person, weather or not they were caught and strung up for being the cyber abusers that they are, instead they attack an entire franchise and game developer as if the game has a glitch or a programing error set for people to be sexually assaulted in the middle of the game.

(Hello, my name is CAVE BEAR; you might remember me from your favorite anime series developed from your favorite game DOT. HACK. Though the plot line of the above story may seem like a copy cat phenonmon, I can assure you that no one really died of a coma through the production of the game or in the development of the plot of the production. Though it is true vertual characters have a harder time of coming back to life after dying in action, with enough points the game can always continue. We are sorry that you can not telll the difference between reality and fiction, but we love your enthusiam for the games.

PLAY ON)

(In the future it would be nice to know how to prevent hacks from perverts into my gaming relaxation.)

I mean all those mosters in the real world are really scary. Can't someone give that kid in North Wales and all the other gamers out there some advice to defeat these monsters.  They come out of nowhere and overcrowd the game play.

A clear distrubance of my peace and ability to think straight. Aside from writing the paper and only giving a blimp of information that could get the entire game FRAGGED and shutdown, what else can be done. (Aren't there cheat codes for this situation?)

 Who needs cheat codes when you have a SWORD!

 Everyone suggests video games promote violence and any number of negative media. I like to think they promote Self-Defense and you are a dirt bag asking to be taken advantage if you do not excersise some of those special moves on people that invade your space. So if you don't use your virtual super powers on creepy perverts that hack into your game play. You only have yourself to blame for feeling like

 because you allowed someone to hack into your personal life. Really, you play RPG's all day long and you don't know how to win the 1000+ heart points yet?  Real easy to defeat these unnessacry hacks without calling the cops.  

(You've held them in suspence long enogh, Just tell them already, so they can go back to gaming, and I don't have to patrol anymore.)

K.O. that fool as fast as possible and send a Ping back to his hard drive, attached with a DoSS attack. I am sure the code is compatible to all controlers and you double tapp (sqaure) while your scream real loud into the losers ear how bad his face just got creamed and if he was there in person you'd do it for real.

The ping back attack will make it so he/she that has assaulted you verbally can no longer speak to you or text while gaming. So it is like they are in a web of goo while you are beating them in the face. All through a game.

Never be made to feel cheap or a loser, ever again!

Rage on Kiddies!

Jim Rohn~ is noted for saying things like: " The few who do are the envy of the many who only watch."

Their is a certian amount of Jazz associated with my art, and pieces like

For the life of me I can not quite put my finger, as to where it stems from. Sometime I want to shut the valve off. Then I look at my work again and think; "Originality severs it's own purpose." Leave it as it is and those that can appreciate the verve will; those that can't, will be shocked into remembering.

 That is how TheShadling, (I am so sorry for this side note but it is clear now that Shadling is a woman from Switzerland, of course I still have my doubts, and a wonderful creator.) who will go down in history as having a touch with the pen that can really be said speaks for her generation.

Anyway I hope you get the point and onday those that view my work can help me give it a name. The style I mean.

When I was traveling, people would call it, "Realistically Abstract," as if I was a walking oximoron~ A lot of the time I felt that way and it seems to have been reflected in my work. I wanted to pick up a Mad Magazine from one of their earliest editions and see how the world viewed  the illustration, presentation and delivery back then. Could I be as memoralized as Mad Magazine or Rollingstone was?

I am not talking about a rewash of them or a Jimmy Kimmel announcer after he is made to retire, either. I would not mind having my own radio show, but I would want it to focus on art. Sometimes I feel it was all that time on the road that has opened my eyes to view art, music, OUR CULTURE, the way I do. (I know it was.)

The Tree-Houses of New Orleans. https://news.artnet.com/art-world/50-foot-tall-new-orleans-art-tree-house-dismantled-47383

 The guys and gals that did everything they could to manage utitlites of Decatur Street Mansions off the income of street performances and 20 foot murels. Oh how I miss the friends I made in those days. It's over with, I can't go back and nor can I expect the people I am surrounded by now to really understand where I've been and why I was there.

Someone suggested once that I am not really a Chritisan; I thought that was interesting; I knew it was because of my style of art that made them suggest such a notion. Christians just don't talk about the things that I do, nor draw what I draw. I think they could, they can speak to whom ever the wish, the notion that angels and devils is all that cross the mind of a Chrisitan is a bit short sighted or they've never read, "Behold the Pale Horse."

If you have not read it I suggest you pick it up as soon as possible, it is a great read and will help you to see the world as I do. LOL (That's if you want to see the world as I do.)

I have posted a few articles on Linkedin. I was just curious to know if anyone would be interested in what I had to offer and was given quite a listing of companies and entites that are looking:

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Now when I email these companies and ask them about a proposal, the crickets warm to pews. But I thought I would share with those that are interested in finding a place for their talents. I thought it was interesting that so many have been searching through my content and finding something they like. I would have to say as well, that it is thanks to NG's that such opportunities are even set on the table for an artist such as I.

Now am I going to work in NC, I don't think so. But if these companies have offices where I am located I might pay them a visit.

That is if they answer emails.

https://adventvoice.newgrounds.com/news/post/1010290

No, I don't think any of us would have thought Youtube, Reality Television, even programs meant for ones education in the things that matter would open doors to topics and conversations many would have done better with never knowing about. (I am sure saying her name will set off fires somewhere,) I can not hold back this feeling of wishing someone would have gotten a hold of Nasim Najafi Aghdam   before she exited stage left.

  I've heard it said that it takes Strength to exit a stage by yourself. A shameful lie; for after a person is resting in peace; the game is over. Whatever made her upset, what ever she felt she had a right to shoot someone over is forgotten,

Senseless. Counter Productive.

Thus the conflict in my soul. We recieve a few tidbits of information regarding (Mentally-ill-Terrorist-entertainers), have that is clearly something an average person would raise a stink about. Labor, not garnished with contracted wage. Not paying people what you promised them because they come from a desert is dirty and should not be swept under the rug as the, "nature of the buisness." Especially when we are considering a person.

  Nasim was a child with a camera in her face ever since she was young. I did not know her, but she believed in her work, her art, she wsa motivated enough to pull the trigger. I want to pull her from the other side of that door, but I know I better not. 

Let her rest; Never mention her by name agian; No memorials for Nssim.

I can't get her out of mind, I dare not even speak to anyone about it; without coming off as a sympathizer.  I am not~None of us are~ I know we are tired of looking at that door though and hearing the cries of people asking for vindication, protection, for the living. Thinking of her reminded me of a question my father asked me when I was in the third grade. At the time I never really gave him an answer but I want to give him one now.

He asked me, "How do you feel about Tupac's and Bigg's death?"

I know, what you are thinking, their is no correlation between the death of American Rappers, *Performers* and the death of a woman who jumped off the diving board by herself.

The truth is, their is a universal pull that motivated all three deaths and it had nothing to do with what they stood for or discussed with the world. "Greed," surrounded the deaths of all three. Promoters of Tupac and Biggie where not willing to pay what they owed. When the two asked for what was theirs from people that had no intention of seeing them have an influence in the world, bye, bye rappers. In the case of the woman; Youtube had her sign contracts and clauses, they hired her, regardless of her enternal beliefs and "Stiffed," her of some money and she would not have any of it. Very few can handle betrayel well. I know I've had my struggles with it. Those stories will never be rememberd that way.

Rappers will always be remembered as men that can handle a nine and do there time.

Nasim will be remembered as a woman who could not put lipstick on properly and an uneducated vegan.

After Tupac's life was taken, I stopped following rap; To me they were all dirty, greedy men, fighting over the grotto corners of every doped up neighborhood, just elevated to glass buildings. Crack dealers, morphed into TRACK dealers in need of supplying those around them with memories of a fix.
 I have felt that way since I was in the third grade, with my father looking at me, asking me, "How do you feel about the death of a Rapper?"

I was not so cold blooded that I could turn away from the weeping. I know he was of somethin incoruptable after being shot over a momentary bliss. I am not so colc blooded that what I hear a woman took her life because she felt robbed and abused by her employers, I'd turn a deaf ear to her plees, creeping from behind the door. I don't think any of us should; I was too young to care about the deaths of Rappers, who are no more real in the cosmic scheme of things, that matter. No more real than Cartoon Network or Sesame Street Amusment Parks or Disney Movies. Entertainers were never a part of my reality, but Nasim.

There is something different with her case, that just makes me want to keep perspectives in place.

I remember in college my favorite song was "All I wanna do is take your money."

It was everywhere, from strip clubs, hooters, the mall, my car.

The beat was what everyone wanted to hear, well every one in my circle. They remembered their quick fingered jack days in grade school and the laughs produced from getting away with petty thefts in highschool. Games we played as kids; all in a song. Then Nasim came.

She was real. A real person wornged by an obviously greedie corporation but we all enjoyed there product because we wanted to be entertained.

Recently I heard about some young rappers who were stripped in the night and robbed at gun point; again I think to myself~ They are the ones rapping about their expensive lives, how they ride or die, rough ride for life. La-da-da-ta-la-da. Just to sell records. So I hold on to my reserve if something bad happens to them. I am sure the money goes to a good cause.

But Nasim.

Supported by no one, who had followers, that have said nothing . She was assisted in her exit of stage left by voices who speak lies, and disappear as mysteriously as they arrived.

Recently one of my peices was compared to  the cover of Kreators album"Endless Pain," album. I thought this was intersting and because it was brought up I decided to visit some sites that help to shed some light on the idea behind this German Metal Band.

  Very curious how my American art can be confused for the stylings of German design so I wanted visit and see who they were and if they still perform or create works. They were apparently introduced to the world on October 1985 by Noise Records. Well at least this album was. They went through some ups and downs as discussed here, https://www.metal-archives.com/reviews/Kreator/Endless_Pain/805/. Now it can not really be said I am a fan of Heavey Metal, though it is insteresting that a lot of my art work has been compared to creators like HYDE and Japanese origin or this German band that has created music only a few thrashers could enjoy.

  It is nice to be counted in someone's number though. I listen to the music and compare artisitc motivations and sometimes wonder if maybe back in College we all could have had a cup of coffee together and discussed some of the problems we are trying to overcome in the world of the arts. Discuss some of the head strong wins we have established and the parralles in some of our ideas and how we can fuse them together.

  A dream conversation that would have never really been a reality because of our differances in age. Can you imagine in 1985 I was not even thought of, but my work can be said to bring back some of those memories. Which makes me happy in some regard, because I do not believe any creator should be forgotten or abused by TIME. I was born in 1988 and was not really centered around the heavy metal crowd. My influences stemmed from everything after the 90's and wanting to do more for the genre of modern and contempary art than what has been given, all in the name of the Freedom of Expression, which whenever I use that term, makes those in my immidate circle cringe because if their is no order to the sound, prose, line, structure, they can not see the art hidden inside.

 I was not the only one that had dreams of taking contempary art somewhere else; Tsurumaki has said that he tried to "break the rules" of anime when making FLCL. April 2000 to March 2001 alongside a manga and novel. It aired in the United States on Adult Swim several times between 2003 and 2011. Then we heard nothing more from them really or they got lost in video game productions and we know how grueling that life can be.

Those before me say they were inspired heavily by Anime, Punk Rock, DBZ, Naruto, Superman, and ScoobyDoo for what comes out on paper. Which could all be true. I mean GorillAZ is all of that wrapped into one packaged produced by 60 year old men but they created something that has touched the lives or many and won many awards that I would never take from them. I LIKE TO THINK Kids WITH GUNS was semiprofetic, published in 2006 and here we are now ten years later trying to figure out how kids have guns.

  After everything has been said, I really can't say I was motivated by any of these sounds, prose, lyrics, or desires echoing though our radios. I am an individal and if I cave into the idea that someone can influence what is real to me without my consent, then I am allowing someone to call me brain dead. Which we all know that is not true. I can say because of what I have experianced the art comes easy. Refelctions of dreams turned only into reality by my pen and not by men. I am hoping most of the time someone takes something postive from the content, the images are just a prop to ganer attention; when that is settled, then the story unflods.

  For the longest time there has been discussion on the dangers of video games, movies, music, anything that protrays viloence and the art that has been presented has been said to be the work of demented people. It made me so angry to hear that. To know everything I grew up with, from Something Wicked:

To Ex-Files:

TO the Pretender:

as seen as something bad, demented, disturbing, Out of this world to the point that anyone who brings to the topic of discussion possiblities that are clearly evident from every news source, and infrustructure since I was born is given this face :

While listening to what I found to be quite entertaining as a young artist. Always feeling I knew the difference between Fact and Fiction.

So, what aside from my life, entertainment, music, and liturature went into the creation of, "Holding the Line," I can not say it was Metal Thrashing Rock, I would say a love for Pulp, and Imagination and Mystery!

SAN BRUNO, Calif. — In Iran, she was known as Green Nasim, a social media star with followings on YouTube, on Instagram and elsewhere.

That was a tragic case. It really burned me up to hear that story. Sigh; She was not the only one telling people about the eerie sensation of speaking to people, of sharing what it is your heart is set on delivering and never quite recieving the validation you are looking for. I suppose there is an idea that if we don't talk about the issue will disappear. Leave at she was crazy and killed herself. Don't try to understand them; they don't want to be understood. They, what a cop-out term.

  Those that made fun of her, or thought there was something so senister in her behavior, clearly have never been robbed by a corporate entity that has the nerve to say, "After they have robbed you, stripped you, made you do things you would never have done in a million years, unless you were going to get paid for it. THAT YOU ARE  NOT and your NOT as important as we made you out to be."

 You know that is what corporate told her, so she slept in the back of the place in her car. The cops knew she was there; "But she seemed calm, She did not pose a threat to anyone, She is a vegan." Sigh.

It is creepy how we know so much about a case like this based on the report from the news. Creepy, what we don't know is what goes on in the headquaters of Youtube that makes employees want to do what she did. I hope her family is cared for, I hope they fix in the news what they said about her, I hope she is treated better in her passing, then how she was treated in life.

  There are some things I can't laugh at.

Slavery, People Farming, Indentured Servitude, What is that process when people that are not legal in a country and have to work in secret or in the basement of a textile mill, "SWEAT SHOP," (IS YOUTUBE RUNNING A SWEAT SHOP of DATA USERS!?) was the world made to ignore Youtubes clear violation of a person's right to acquire substantial amount of collateral to pay her rent, because she could not quite articulate in English how she felt? (When you look at the story in that angle it gets pretty bad and you don't want to talk about it anymore. Someone literally took advantage of a person because they could not speak english.)

!!I like to consider myself a hunter of the strange and wonderful!!

http://www.phoenixnewtimes.com/news/american-airlines-learjet-pilots-describe-seeing-ufo-over-arizona-10280978

I was curious about this ball of light that he saw at 40,000 feet above his air plane?

When that happens can it be compared to the Dog Truckers see after hours of being on the road. I hear there is this dog from hell that chases truckers sometimes after they have not slept for days. So my connection is the fact that a pilot may suffer from similar experiance of flying for too long and naturally sees extra balls of light.

Thus the UFO, and Ray Stern has a story to tell. Then the cycle of chasing green men continues.

Again I don't believe in aliens and so when I hear about them, my skeptic radar comes and I am always disappointed because the stories can be proven wrong with little attacks at logic, like the one I brought up about the Hounds from hell reported to have been chasing truckers for years.

http://www.phoenixnewtimes.com/news/american-airlines-learjet-pilots-describe-seeing-ufo-over-arizona-10280978

Now just because I don't believe in little green men does not mean the story does not have a moment of truth connected to it. I just like to believe I have a grasp on reason a lot of the time and just because CNN is not willing to catch a story or report on it does not mean it is not crediable. I have to be reasonable. If Trump not dealing with Russians is reasonable, then we can talk about Aliens. If Marching against racism for 50 years is reasonable then we can talk about Aliens.

So friends of the strange and mild, share your thoughts on this delightful subject. LMAO.